These two days have been very memorable due to my menses cramps.
I get really bad menses cramps, the type where i will just lie in bed, thinking how bad it is. Last month was horribly painful, i remember having cold sweat, lying in bed, breathing heavily, clutching my tummy, praying hard, thinking death was about to come to me. The sharp pains in my tummy area was painful beyond description. I was literally ‘tortured’. I have held this off too long, thus i am going to see a TCM doctor soon for my cramps. I had been avoiding seeing one as i didn’t want her to start prescribing me medicine for my rashes, the wounds i have on my hands due to TSW. Oh well, i don’t think i can stand anymore of going through this pain once a month. Its just plain horrible.
I think the redness on my hands are disappearing, as some areas in it look lighter. I hope that is just not my imagination. 😛
The bloody wounds on my legs have stopped oozing unless i just got out from a shower. And they have more or less dried up but they do look really eeky with the scabs, pink skin, and bits of crusts.
Before while it was oozing (Pardon me for my hairy legs, as i can’t really shave or go for hair removal since i have all this wounds) ITS MY DREAM to go once im healed!:
Now in the eeky dry form:
Its an improvement right!
I got one super big eeky wound with the same dry characteristics but i think its kinda eeky fascinating. I will post that big wound when im healed of it. 🙂
I feel that my hands are like blotchy looking, better than one huge patch of red. Still you have to look at it up close before you think that it is blotchy looking.
I have been wearing long skirts, flowy skirts to avoid any rubbing on my skin since it is scabbing nicely. OH and yesterday night, i scratched! GOSH, i didn’t want to, who would ever want to! I woke up to see my hand scratching the dead skin off, my scabs!! Oh well, damage done, i can’t possibly paste my scab back on it. So i wiped off the blood, ooze and went back to bed.
The weather has been really bad recently with the haze reaching unhealthy levels. Now its about 170 plus, which is reaching very unhealthy levels soon. Hopefully, there will be rain and it will get rid of the haze soon.
Recently, i have been learning something new about God. Its an incredible gift to be able to know him and to love him back. We love Him because He first loved us. He first loved us, that’s the point. I desire to see my loved ones all in heaven because to know such a great God is amazing. Imagine all of us clustered in heaven. HEHE
I have been reading the Gospel book by J.D. Greear, and i find it very insightful. It makes me focus on the gospel itself instead of any other things. I kind of have lost track of the gospel while pursuing God. Honestly, i lost sight of it. Now, i remind myself daily of the gospel which brings us good news. I find myself freed of certain issues that i was facing. God is good. 🙂
Recently, someone dear to me has been facing verbal abuse at work. He hears negative comments about him and i guess that is all out of jealousy and evil thoughts. I read in A.W Tozer book that for verbal abuse, all it does is to hurt your ears. It will only hurt you if you let it get past your ear. You will be injured yourself if you fill yourself with malice, hatred, anger at the person, because you chose to let it hurt you. I find that helps me a lot when i deal with angry or frustrated clients on the phone.
Side note about my diet: i feel that sugar worsens my tsw. When i cut down on my sugar, my wounds look better and not angry inflamed red. So here we go, i will avoid sugar whenever i can. 🙂 Still avoiding gluten, seafood, dairy and weird junk food. My only source of comfort food is potato chips (gluten free) with sea salt.